Monday was Pete's first day home alone with Nori (all day) when I went back to work. I had no hesitation in leaving them, I was looking forward to being back at a job that I love. I was feeling kind of bad about this when people asked me if it was hard to leave her. Of course I missed her, but I realized I was so peaceful because Pete feels like an extension of me- so in that way I wasn't really away from her. The idea of leaving her somewhere else all day did bother me, which felt like the mother response I was supposed to have.
Pete was so excited to spend the day with her. I was a bit tentative of his excitement, knowing that staying home all day isn't always as peachy as it sounds. I expected him to call me often at work, asking of her routines, eating, etc. . . but he didn't! Not once! (of course I called a few times) I at least expected him to still be in his PJ's and say "how do you do this everyday?" when I got home. But to my amazement, he and Nori were as happy as ever AND he did laundry, started the taxes and still had time to do a few things for himself.
This just reminded me again of what a natural and beautiful father he is. Before we had her, I expected him to be a good Dad in the ways I knew him. But ever since the first week of her life I have been left speechless at his love and care for her. It has brought out parts of him I have never seen. He loves her so deeply, responds calmly to her cries, walks her endlessly. He gives her the bottle often and is so patient when she is fussy with it. He supports and cares for me tenderly as well. But what really wows me is the love that I see in his eyes for her. The day after he was at home with her, we were dropping him at work and he hesitated in leaving her and I saw a tear in his eye.
He is going to be at home with her on Mondays until July.
Something about having Nori has brought us deeper in love with each other in a way I never expected. We feel more whole as true family now. I have never been happier in my life.
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