I am SOOOOoo excited, Jesus' birthday is finally over and now it is MINE. I have been counting the number of naps I have until the big day. And now I only have one more! I like to count on my fingers and show people, 3!! that is how many I will be.
Mama says that once I turn three I will be all grown up and have to start sharing. The past few months have been hard to realize that sharing can be fun. Sometimes I tell people, I don't want to share. I like NOT sharing, but the few times I have shared my toys, it feels pretty good. I do like to horde though. I have managed to stash 90% of Miriam's toys somewhere in my room.
When I fall asleep at night, there is a role call of toys expected to present: Lovie, Hoppy, Rabbit, Cutesie, Thea, the "moon," my flashlight. After roll call, Mama tucks me up to my chiny chiny chin. Then we repeat our bedtime mantras, "sleep tight don't let the bed bugs bite." "See you when you wake up." "sweet dreams." " I love you so much" and then we blow kisses and catch them.
Then I stay in bed and fall asleep and don't get out until my clock is green! (6 something depending on what mama set it for.)
This sleep thing is easy now but BOY did I have a rough time this fall. Dad got in the habit of sleeping with me soon after Miriam was born because I was sick,then he decided no more Daddy in bed. That was trouble, I would scream and cry for HOURS every night because "I AM NOT TIRED" I would even throw up sometimes. Finally, the only thing I was truly influenced by was the threat to close the bedroom door.
For many nights they did close the door for about 5 minutes and I would kick and scream with all my might. Then when they would open it, I would hop in bed and stay in bed.
I find a lot of power in crying. When I feel powerless I cry and throw my body down on the floor.
This happens several times a day. Mama says I cry more than Miriam.
I am trying to learn to take deep breaths and relax before "losing it."
Mama says we need to continue to work on this and spend time cuddling more. I need lots of affection and when I feel powerless and I am crying my emotions overwhelm me. Mama is learning to hold me during those times.
Some favorite recent memories:
Playing in the snow and EATING the snow. I love to eat it!
I got a dollhouse for Christmas and when I received money for my bday I was allowed to pick out some furniture for the dollhouse online.It was cool to order it and then have it come in the mail.
When Mom didn't give me what I wanted, I reminded her "Sharing is caring."
I like to bargain for "two more minutes." of whatever I want to keep doing!
I finally got an appetite, after 3 years of not eating that much, I am HUNGRY. I have been eating everything in sight!
Yesterday, I tried Kale chips, korean bulgolgi, bean sprouts, and bran muffins.
One day I ate 6 pieces of lunch meat, two tortillas, an apple, just for lunch!
Just like the hungry caterpullar!
I adore my baby sister. I really do. Mama says it is a miracle. I have never been mad at her, nor upset because she gets more attention sometimes.
I like to bring her toys, to hug and kiss her, and I like to tuck her in and sing to her with Mama.
Mama says once she starts moving, this will change. But maybe she should just stay a baby forever, then we won't have any problems.
I am going to have a baby soon. Sometimes, I lift up my shirt and say "Mommy, my baby is going to come out soon." She says I have to be as tall as her first. So that's why I keep eating so much so I can grow up really big and be a mommy.
Yesterday, Fishy grew up into a Mommy. I came downstairs and fishy was 10 x as big! I couldn't believe it Mama says it was because she was eating all her seeds and vegetables. (or she had to buy a new fish because the first one froze to death on the windowsill)
Now that she is so big, I am calling her Dorothy (just like Elmo's fish.)
I am starting to learn my letters. I now know N, M, and P. I am working on K and D.
One of my favorite things to do now, is to say I have a secret to tell you. . . and I whisper. . . I love you SO much.
And I do, I love my Mama and my Daddy and I love LIFE SO much.
xxoo
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